just dont

i dont remember saying goodbye to hannah. i dont remember being in the picture that summer. i dont remember being alive my first year. i dont remember the time i was crying as an infant and my brother told my dad that i wanted milk and once my dad gave it to me, i stopped crying. i dont remember talking in my sleep...often. i dont remember my bad dreams as a child. i dont remember falling off the bed. i dont remember why we got so bad. sometimes i dont remember how i was before you. i dont remember when i whined. i dont remember the first time i met her parents. i dont remember their divorce. i dont remember my life before the divorce. i dont really remember ever living with my mom and dad together. i dont remember a time when my mom ever had custody of us. i definitely do not remember the blue house that erik and dad talk about so often. I dont remember all of our old neighbors or the school erik went to. i dont remember what i did during the days erik was at school and i was still too young. i dont remember when i first met my mom now. i dont remember the meal she first made me my brother and dad at her condo. i dont remember the last time that i washed my car. i dont remember when gas prices were 'cheap'. i dont remember last thing i may have said to my mom or my dad. i dont remember what i was doing this time yesterday. sometimes, i just dont remember.